|This is one of our first coffee bags|
There have been other girls that have left recently. Two of the girls got to go home with their moms, which was the answer to their prayers. One went back to a center, another went home to live with a legal attorney for child service. One girl came to us and but she didn't get to stay long. When they brought her they didn't send one document except for me to be able to receive her. We had no background on her except for the immediate need for housing. The first day she was so sweet and humble, reading her Bible to the little ones. The next day she was being extremely rude to the teachers, refusing to obey even the smallest requests. She was doing things that were clear to all that she needed a lot of help. I talked to her and we made a deal that she would do better. Usually a girl who comes to the ministry has a time of about 3 weeks before you really start seeing the child act naturally, but with this girl she was acting badly within 24 hours. So the next week, she was wonderful. Her personality was tender and very humble with the teachers and the other staff members were encouraged that she was going to be okay. The next week, she was acting like she was a 4 year old, literally. She couldn't bathe herself, would brush her teeth, and wouldn't speak, to anybody except to her self and her secret friend. I couldn't figure what was going on. I talked with her and prayed with her to no avail. Her situation drove me to my knees trying to reach out to her.
I called a psychologist to ask her about the young girl's mental status. The psychologist said that if she was doing fine for a whole week and was normal and now couldn't even go to school because she was acting like she had definite emotional challenges, was a little bizarre. She said that she may have some severe spiritual problems. I agreed with that. I had been praying like crazy for this girl. I didn't know how to help her. Prayer was my only option for this situation to turn around because nothing else was working. I did what the doctor suggested, and had a meeting in my office with her to tell her some things the doctor told me to discuss with her that might help. Then all of a sudden, she started speaking like she was a graduate from a university and seminary student all at the same time. I was amazed! Of course, she had all of theology extremely messed up, as well as her scriptures, but the way she was delivering her thoughts was wonderful. When I started speaking to her from how the scripture really reads, she grabbed the handles of her high back chair lifted it up with her in it, and turned around and continued to stare at the ceiling like she was looking for something important in the wood. I talked to her about the love of God and how He cared for her and wanted her free.
Her psychologist and a lawyer from the children services started relaying the history of this girl the next day. They said they suspected she needed intense psychiatric care, and that they thought she might even be dangerous to herself and others. Her life from 2 years of age until before she arrived at PTC was a nightmare! I wanted to ask them why did they send her here with all the emotional damage she has suffered, but I didn't. They admitted that she needed a lot of help, but that our ministry was their last hope. We had a team member who was as burdened as I was for this girl, and we prayed with her. I just knew that she would repent and stay, but she just stared at us with a strange smile on her face and didn't say a word.
I wanted so badly for this to turn out differently. I wanted her healed, saved and fitting in here and experiencing a better life. It just didn't happen. Sometimes the girls that come here don't stay to complete the program here. They are pulled away for one reason or another. Some are good reasons like being reunited with their parents, and then there are other situations they are drawn to that are not so good. But our ministry is not this girl's only hope, God is.
There is a scripture in Isaiah 1:18 It says "Come let us reason together, saith the Lord: "Though your sins be as scarlet, they shall be white as snow, though they be as crimson they shall be as wool. If you be willing and obedient ye shall eat the fruit of the land: but if you refuse and rebel you will be devoured." The end of that scripture is not a happy ending. When this girl left, my friend told me this isn't the end. God brought her here for a reason and we are continuing to pray for her. Please pray for this girl and the many other girls who are in her situation. Through no fault of their own they have been dragged though every type of evil that man can sink into. She is just one of the many thousands of girls who are being abused and discarded. She lives in a world of different personalities and that is how she copes day to day, not being able to live in freedom that Christ died for her to have. I want to not just shake my head and say to myself what a sad story. I want to be faithful to continue to pray for her. Please join with me and pray for these girls and the people who are committing these crimes against girls all over the world. I know God wants to reason with them, and make their sins as white as snow. I know that God will move on their behalf if His people will humble themselves, and pray and seek His face that He will hear from heaven and heal our land.
The girls have recipes they have to follow to make desserts for the bakery. They can't leave anything out or their wonderful confections will not turn out right. God gives us a recipe for success for this situation. Be humble, pray, seek His face, THEN He will hear from heaven and heal our land. Please let us be reasonable, and pray. Blessings, the Reasonable and Praying, Honduran MOM